how shallow can i get..
umm sometimes i really wonder how shallow i can get at times!!i'm not like an airhead or anything it's just that..i duno not just me but all girls my age,we are always living in circles of tragedy that are about boys,diet and make up!i mean seriously?!
"O-MY-GOD i broke my nail"
"gosh Nat can't u like be more careful!maybe you can use a fake one to cover it up till it grows,gosh ur such a dummy at times!who the hell opens a can of coke with their nails!"
sometimes i wonder whats going on in this very same moment a million miles away,somewhere like palestine or so..maybe a mother is being told that her son was shot,or a kid lost his father and i wonder how they think of us!they probaby think we are kids who have a perfect life that we arent even thankful for!and i guess they are right!!i can't stop thinking about a new cellfone,a new Ipod,a new LCD screen and a new car..i think am just too materialistic and its not totally my fault..well am xcessively pamperd and i was raised to have whtever i want!and i never appreciated the little things in life,i just took them for granted..i always had friends,money,a stable house -thank god- and evry1 in skool knew me not cz am a superstar but my brother was one,so naturally i took part of the fame..i was never an outcast or an outsider even in my 1st day in college my brother hung out with me till i met some people and whenever he glanced me sitting on my own he wuold rush over to sit with me..still i never learned to appreciate the happy moments i spent with him,with my family,friends,the warmth of our house,the little inside jokes i share with my friends..the love i learned to give unconditionally..i guess we never learn how to fully grow up untill something tragic happens to change our lives 360 degrees..i jst hope its not too late to pick the pieces up and appreciate..my brother KH passed away lik a year and a half ago,i miss him so bad it aches and i hope he knows it,,
"O-MY-GOD i broke my nail"
"gosh Nat can't u like be more careful!maybe you can use a fake one to cover it up till it grows,gosh ur such a dummy at times!who the hell opens a can of coke with their nails!"
sometimes i wonder whats going on in this very same moment a million miles away,somewhere like palestine or so..maybe a mother is being told that her son was shot,or a kid lost his father and i wonder how they think of us!they probaby think we are kids who have a perfect life that we arent even thankful for!and i guess they are right!!i can't stop thinking about a new cellfone,a new Ipod,a new LCD screen and a new car..i think am just too materialistic and its not totally my fault..well am xcessively pamperd and i was raised to have whtever i want!and i never appreciated the little things in life,i just took them for granted..i always had friends,money,a stable house -thank god- and evry1 in skool knew me not cz am a superstar but my brother was one,so naturally i took part of the fame..i was never an outcast or an outsider even in my 1st day in college my brother hung out with me till i met some people and whenever he glanced me sitting on my own he wuold rush over to sit with me..still i never learned to appreciate the happy moments i spent with him,with my family,friends,the warmth of our house,the little inside jokes i share with my friends..the love i learned to give unconditionally..i guess we never learn how to fully grow up untill something tragic happens to change our lives 360 degrees..i jst hope its not too late to pick the pieces up and appreciate..my brother KH passed away lik a year and a half ago,i miss him so bad it aches and i hope he knows it,,
posted by Drama Queen at 6:51 AM
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2 Comments:
I'm sure he must feel the strength of your emotions and longing. You'll always keep his memory alive:) how can he not feel it?
I don't think it's shallowness, who is to say why we are given the life we are? True, there is a lot of suffering in the world, Allah has chosen to bless you for a reason.
Stay safe!
well am sure there is a reason am still here i just hope i'd figure it out u knw!!well i don't know i think we are given a life and we choose to do something with it but maybe we view the choices we are given in a wrong way you know..
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