Things You don't know about me even if you live with me!

1. i just love whinning..am not sure why but i find whinning a very relieveing process! i can go on & on about how sucky everything is,how hard my major is,how i miss this & that & dear gods please dont get me started.

2. I always run converstaions in my head that i know would never happen!i mean things like 6 years from now when i bump into my x i'll be 20kgs slimmer,blonde,smart and successful with the most amazing guy in the whole world by my side!and his name would be Ahmed or Khlaed & am gonna act like i don't remember him!

3. I'm in love with a guy who doesnt exist anymore!!am still in love with my x but he isnt himself anymore so it doesnt actually make sense but i can't get over it yet.

4. I feel a little twinkle inside of me whenever some1 asks me about my major,it's just that everyone keeps going on about how smart iam and how hard it is and bla bla i just feel silently delighted tho i curse my major in public!

5. I have a thing for tough guys,i mean sheesh they are really exciting with their jealous extremlly sexy attitude! When i was a kid i wanted to date a biker or a pirate!*yes i mentally lived in many ages*

6. I wana get married to some1 who has a mixture of the chracters of my bestfriend and my x!Funny,smart,understanding,sarcastic,patient,a bit romantic,religious,fearful of god & judgement day & openminded but to a limit i mean he should like get jealous its only human am not getting married to a coffee table!Actually thats all like my best friend except for the sarcasm part that was my ex!!

7. My mum thinks am in love with my best friend and she's scared he'll "break my heart" by choosing some1 else!!!god she is SO CUTE i keep telling her he hes a gurlfriend but she wouldnt listen!!one day am gonna have to tel her that am still in love with the only person she never considered!i mean really she th8 i was dating ALL my other male friends except the one i dated! =D

8. I secretly pray MM would die soon so the world would be 1-bitch short!

9. I hope my bestfriend marries his current girlfriend so we can actually be friends forever cz this is the 1st time my bestfriend's gurlfriend believz am not after her "man"!

10. I had a dream where i married my best friend's brother & we stayed as close as we are..i told him about it and we laughed it off but i hope it comes true sometime cz i really think of him as a brother.

11. I make fun of girls who act like total "Chicks"..umm like match everyything they wear in such an agonizing matter,fix their hair everyday,wear high-kitten heals,adore pink & paint their nails upon their mood!Actually if i could i would be one it just doesnt suit my physical looks!Therefore i secretly admire their girly attitude!

12.I'm screwed up...

13.I experienced every emotion you can name tho am only 17

Grief when my brother died whe i was 16

Jealousy that i always standout among any group due to the fact that am taller & overweight..

Rage when every guy I liked back in skool, liked one of my "thin" friends..and the only guy i really loved too..

Outkasting when I had 2 brothers who used to sit in their room playing PS2 & whenever i walked in they would completely zipped it & i wasnt allowed to talk so they would concentrate on the Game!

Rejection when my whole gang deserted me for a whole year back in skool & am still not sure why..we never got that close again..

Pressure, when mum keeps reminding me that i have to be more responsible about my looks in order to get married to a proper guy..

14. I can laugh & cry at the same time!!i swear i nearly do it ALL the time!