Best friends do exist in tele-tubbies!
umm..i dont know if i will ever be able to tell you this or what!!i mean,its been going on since ever and still i can't seem to comunicate with you any better..
I mean i do love you,your my best friend but am i Your bestfriend?i know we said we won't let trivial stupid things come between us,i know we said we'll make it work,i know I said i wont do the stupid things that screwed my friendship with E again but am not sure i'm the one at fault now..a lot of things has been going on lately with me,seems like life is trying to break my spirit -more than its already broken- and it seems to be doing quiet a good job!! I mean mum isn't the same,she's a lot more miserable than she ever were and it's not lik i can do anything to help..my brother changed,he changed to some1 i dont recognize,some1 i never actually knew. He is angry,furious and sick of everyone all the time. Not everyone per se actually me more than any1,sometimes i think he wanted me to be the one six feet under instead of KH -our other brother RIP- but again sometimes i feel the same about him. It's just like too many things were left unsaid that now they are finding their way to the surface,we are both so sick and tired of each other now that KH the only buffer between us is gone. Thats whats wrong with my family,and about my extended family its like Worse..i mean an aunt of mine got a tumor,they said it was benign and once she had it removed they discovered it was malignant and it probably spread a long way in her body..she had like 2 operations in 2 successive days! She's tired,exhausted and the whole family is in shock,i mean it's like god is testing us all the time. First KH now AM's tumor it's just too much,too exhausting for out faith..
While AM was having her tumor removed i was 2 doors down having an absecess removed from my arm too!yea i know,how ironic...well at least she was sedated i was freakin wide awake with a guy slicing me open! It's a very painful procedure i cried my eyes out to the extent that my arm kept shaking i cudnt hold it still. It's still painful but am on loads of painkillers cz i have an exam after tomorrow that i need to undergo perfectly..
I hate you for not being here D cz i really need you,i hate the fact that your always too busy doing NOTHING and whenever i need you i have to call you and ask you to be here i mean whats so special about this relation?!this relation where i need to tell u to be HERE I mean i th8 bestfrnds shud knw all abut tht crap..but hey we all have problems it's just that YOURS are more important than mine cz yours usually include chicks pinching your ass, you not sure if u like tht chick or THAT chick,your gurlfrnd not txting you every 10 minutes & recently CD your gurlfrnd's pridesmaid interfering in ur relation with SS!!i mean really...?sometimes you really do have problems but lately am taking all the luck off ur plate and every1 elses!
I mean i do love you,your my best friend but am i Your bestfriend?i know we said we won't let trivial stupid things come between us,i know we said we'll make it work,i know I said i wont do the stupid things that screwed my friendship with E again but am not sure i'm the one at fault now..a lot of things has been going on lately with me,seems like life is trying to break my spirit -more than its already broken- and it seems to be doing quiet a good job!! I mean mum isn't the same,she's a lot more miserable than she ever were and it's not lik i can do anything to help..my brother changed,he changed to some1 i dont recognize,some1 i never actually knew. He is angry,furious and sick of everyone all the time. Not everyone per se actually me more than any1,sometimes i think he wanted me to be the one six feet under instead of KH -our other brother RIP- but again sometimes i feel the same about him. It's just like too many things were left unsaid that now they are finding their way to the surface,we are both so sick and tired of each other now that KH the only buffer between us is gone. Thats whats wrong with my family,and about my extended family its like Worse..i mean an aunt of mine got a tumor,they said it was benign and once she had it removed they discovered it was malignant and it probably spread a long way in her body..she had like 2 operations in 2 successive days! She's tired,exhausted and the whole family is in shock,i mean it's like god is testing us all the time. First KH now AM's tumor it's just too much,too exhausting for out faith..
While AM was having her tumor removed i was 2 doors down having an absecess removed from my arm too!yea i know,how ironic...well at least she was sedated i was freakin wide awake with a guy slicing me open! It's a very painful procedure i cried my eyes out to the extent that my arm kept shaking i cudnt hold it still. It's still painful but am on loads of painkillers cz i have an exam after tomorrow that i need to undergo perfectly..
I hate you for not being here D cz i really need you,i hate the fact that your always too busy doing NOTHING and whenever i need you i have to call you and ask you to be here i mean whats so special about this relation?!this relation where i need to tell u to be HERE I mean i th8 bestfrnds shud knw all abut tht crap..but hey we all have problems it's just that YOURS are more important than mine cz yours usually include chicks pinching your ass, you not sure if u like tht chick or THAT chick,your gurlfrnd not txting you every 10 minutes & recently CD your gurlfrnd's pridesmaid interfering in ur relation with SS!!i mean really...?sometimes you really do have problems but lately am taking all the luck off ur plate and every1 elses!
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