10 reasons to love a penguin!

Well it's jst about time!well umm..i think thoose r the reasons i love penjuins!

1. Dont you love their colour!
2. They dont exactly have hair nor like skin..i duno its jst something smooth,shiny and like always wet ,its ADORABLE!
3. Am not sure if they have a voice but if they do hell its gotta b squeakyy!how cute!
4. They live in groups which means they hav sub-groups,just like us..so maybe there are the ghetto-penguins,the gypsy penguins,the goth penguins,bussiness class,the cheerleaders & the polo group!! =D
5. They make the most adorable squeaky sound when they walk!*at least they do in my head!* zee2 zeee2 zeee2!
6. They look so freaking soft and like fluffy i wana squeeze the hell outta them! *no it just a metaphor am not psycho!*
7. They have funny feet i just wana get them a pair of flip flops!
8. You don't have to walk them lik a dog *thats incase u hav a penguin pet u knw!*
9. You don't have to clean after them am sure they pee and manage in the water unlike SQ's stupid stupid kitty!the damn thing peed under her bed!!
10. You don't have to play with them,it's enough entertainment to watch them!

penguins!

gosh i know this is so stupid but i LOVE PENGUINS!!!i have no idea why,honestly i dont..it's just something i grew up with!i remember when i was lik 6 or something i used 2 cry because my parents wouldnt let me get a pet penguin!STOP LAUGHING am not kidding =D i really wanted one!!my parents got me birds and fish but its not the same!well those poor fishes and birds they were another tragedy!well about the fishes,my brother (by mistake he aint a monster) was messing with the heater before we went out and he ended up boiling the poor things!we came home to find their tank extremly hot and all the fish floatin on the surface!!on the other hand!the birds were a family of 3,they were adorable..i guess but one of them got sick and had diaherria for a while it was AWFUL!!and did i mention that the child was blind?wht am not kidding!well the blind baby bird died first,am not sure why!then the mother bird kept hitting the dude with her beak on his head till he bleed and died!dont look at me this way i didnt raise them to be criminals they just are!!!and the mother didnt stop making squeaky noises eva sice she killed the dude so we decidd 2 sell her!on our way to sell her,am not sure how but the cage wasnt sealed well so she escaped..wheew werent we glad =D well istill want a penguin nyway!!they are jst so cute and am gonna tell you why as soon as i figure out!

Do you really get it?

sometimes i wonder if its my problem or is life so complicated!sometimes you just lose track of everything,like right now am not sure what i shud be doing you know,like should i be getting over past relationships,mending them,not even think of them?am not really sure and i hate asking people cuz everyone pulls you in a direction then deny it!so why bother!?well..umm i dont really wana go there anyway!!! i have some lectures 2day and bt am like exhausted i just wanna go sleep but in my major this is not even a choice!Anyway,am really pissed off now from my doctor!he's such a jerk,you know one of those 98 years old people who think they have the best english accent and your just a kid!ARGHH he says stuff like "Ztandard=Standard" "eggzbectations = expectations"
"Bossibole = possible"
"stooobid = stupid"
its just horrifying!!your a doctor in a highly respectable university you should bother brushing up ur english!!!and oh my god things like "alko7ol = alcohol" is just hilarious!!it's kinda embaressing you know,am like all red and ready to burst into laughter but its a lecture and i really wana graduate sometime!well i think i've let out some of my suppressed laughters and its time to drag my ass back to work!

so simple yet so complicated?

don't you ever get this feeling that your problems are so trivial and you can solve them all in an hour!i was just watchin this show and it's like everyone is dying and no one is ever getting a chance to say how they feel and build broken bridges and i just think as soon as this episode is over am gonna go call up E "hey buddy,i knw we've been frnds for almost 10 yrs and we dated for a year but we had a fight and suddnly ur best frnds with my so-called-bestfrnd MM and i have my doubts that you guys are dating but you are the love of my life and am sure it's gonna be okay as long as we love each other" and he will go lik "ooo i've been waiting for this for so long" and we meet up,shed some tears,hug and make up and maybe a week later he gets hit by a bus and i think "at least he knew how i felt!" Crap this is all crap!!i hate soap operas they just mess up our heads and make us think that life can be simple but nothing is ever simple!!u dont meet a blonde dude with green eyes,fall in love,get married and have kids!!no ma'am!!that blonde brat is gonna break your heart and so is the next 10 guys you love and u'll end up with some lose who is lik 20 years older than you and you will be bored out of your mind!!not to mention the crappy job and endless money problems you'll have to face!!umm well am out of anger for now so i'll probably blog later and am waiting for my frnd FF to come over so we can watch Pulse!i really need a horror movie am sick of romance it just makes me feel like crap!

how shallow can i get..

umm sometimes i really wonder how shallow i can get at times!!i'm not like an airhead or anything it's just that..i duno not just me but all girls my age,we are always living in circles of tragedy that are about boys,diet and make up!i mean seriously?!
"O-MY-GOD i broke my nail"
"gosh Nat can't u like be more careful!maybe you can use a fake one to cover it up till it grows,gosh ur such a dummy at times!who the hell opens a can of coke with their nails!"

sometimes i wonder whats going on in this very same moment a million miles away,somewhere like palestine or so..maybe a mother is being told that her son was shot,or a kid lost his father and i wonder how they think of us!they probaby think we are kids who have a perfect life that we arent even thankful for!and i guess they are right!!i can't stop thinking about a new cellfone,a new Ipod,a new LCD screen and a new car..i think am just too materialistic and its not totally my fault..well am xcessively pamperd and i was raised to have whtever i want!and i never appreciated the little things in life,i just took them for granted..i always had friends,money,a stable house -thank god- and evry1 in skool knew me not cz am a superstar but my brother was one,so naturally i took part of the fame..i was never an outcast or an outsider even in my 1st day in college my brother hung out with me till i met some people and whenever he glanced me sitting on my own he wuold rush over to sit with me..still i never learned to appreciate the happy moments i spent with him,with my family,friends,the warmth of our house,the little inside jokes i share with my friends..the love i learned to give unconditionally..i guess we never learn how to fully grow up untill something tragic happens to change our lives 360 degrees..i jst hope its not too late to pick the pieces up and appreciate..my brother KH passed away lik a year and a half ago,i miss him so bad it aches and i hope he knows it,,

Crossroads..

The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it's only in the black of night you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home. Maybe your home is haunted with dark memories, but those memories are yours, they will only make you stronger, they will remind you of who you used to be back when you were weak and hurt. Those memories will linger there like scars just to make you who you are tomorrow. Stronger, and better. Every once in a while, people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life can be funny sometimes, cruel but funny. It can push pretty hard. But if you look close enough you'll find hope... in the words of children, in the heart of a right friend, in the bars of a song or in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, I mean, if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet the person u love decides to love you back. Even if you find that person, it will be quite long before you do, but till then you'll have to figure it out on your own...

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid. Confused. Without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us would rather turn around and go back. But every once in a while people push on to something better, something found just beyond the pain of going through and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance to keep you heart or break it. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you Can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief, and beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead...live each season as it passess,breath the air, drink the drink,taste the fruit and resign urself to the influences of each..

A best man's speech..

Lucas: "Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. A promise. Like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. The belief in each other and the possibility of love. A decision, to ignore or simply rise above the pain of the past. The covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. The celebration, of the chance for two will always be stronger than one. Like a team, braced against the tempest’s of the world. And love... will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is mere formality.. only an announcement to the world for feelings long held. Promises made long ago -- in the sacred space of our hearts."

Dreams..

Have you ever had a dream that seemed so real that when you woke up you didnt know what to believe? What would you do if what you thought was true, wasn't. and what you thought wasn't true, was.
Would you retreat into your dreams in hope to find a more perfect reality? Sometimes, life is stranger than a dream. And the only way to wake up, is to face what lies hidden in yourself. And you can only hope in those moments of dark reflection, that you are not alone...But even if you Are alone,Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours...But only if you step up and claim it..

Pain..

Life can be terriblly harsh it seems like it cant get any better and we start to lose hope cz sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of our lives that you expect it to always be there. because you can't remember a time when it wasn't. But then one day you feel something else, something that feels raw, probably because it's so unfamilar, then in that moment, you realize you're happy.Happiness comes in many forms. In the company of good friends. In the feeling that you get when you make someone elses dream come true. Or in the promise of hope renewed. It's okay to let yourself be happy. Because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be...This was the intro of a OTH episode i was just watching,its so beautiful i just love the quotes..and ideas they have..

Blow him off!!

LOL this is like the funniest way to blow off a guy,its lik Brooke is sitting at a bar wallowing in her misery when some jerk comes over to hit on her
"Okay, guy in need of a clue. Here's one. Women send signals. That was a brush off. Before you dip into your shallow pool of wit let me paint us a picture and save us both the trouble. Here's your evening. You are going to slink back off to your buddies, laugh this off, get wasted, go home, and make nice with yourself. But don't be thinking of me, because even your fantasy of me, isn't interested in YOU!"

A moment?

As it happens sometimes a moment settles and hovers and remains for much more than a moment. And sound stops and movement stops for much, much more than a moment.
And then the moment is gone...Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering..

dying..?

"I’m standing upon the sea shore.
A white ship at my side is spreading her white sails to the morning breeze
And starts for the blue ocean
She is an object of beauty and strength I stand and watch her, until she hangs like a speck of white Cloud just as sea and sky seem to mingle with each other
Then someone at my side says
“There. She’s gone”
“Gone where?”
“Gone from my sight”
That is all
She’s just as large and mast and whole
As she was when she left my sight
And she’s just as able to bare her load of living freight To their destined port
Her diminished size is in me Not in her
And just at the moment when someone at my side says
“There, she is gone”
There are other eyes watching her coming
And other voices ready to take up the glad shout
“Here she comes”
And that is dying ...

P.Sawyer..

Future moment..

i was watchin OTH again..and this dialoug happend and i just can't get it out of my head i HAD to share it!!am awfully late for my bed time and i have college tomorrow but to hell with it..this is good!!
"ever wonder how long it takes to change your life?
what measure of time is enough to be life altering?
Is it four years like high school?
one year? an 8 week rock tour?
can your life change in a month? or a week? or a single day?
we're always in a hurry, to grow up, to go places, to get ahead. But when you're young,one hour can change everything. do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives, or if the moments in our lives make us?and if you could go back and change just one thing about your life, would you? and if you did, would that change make your life better?
Or would that change ultimatily break your heart? or break the heart of another?
would you choose an entirely different path? or would you change just one thing?
just one moment. one moment that you always wanted back..

Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who's standing next to you? "

My life?

Douglas adams once wrote he felt that his whole life was some kinda dream..and he sometimes wondered whose it was..and wether they were enjoying it..
I think its kinda ironic because personaly most of my dreams are parts of MY life!and actually its the parts that never happen,or like..i duno i have a fight with my friend,i go to sleep to see whatever we didn't do or things we didn't say..!Like the part where i really blame MM for being such a ***** to me and like never caring how i felt!!the truth is..i'd never say that,cz i really care about people's feelings..It's ironice whoever is out there watching my life would find it pathetic!I jst care about everyone's feelings that it sends me to the back of everyone's minds..

OTH...

i was watching that tv show..its just pure drama about relationships,love,families and its just pure heartbreaks 100 times per episode!but i love the quotes the characters always mentioned..
Stephen King once wrote "time takes it all,wether you want it to or not,time takes it all,time bears it away..and in the end there's only darkness..sometimes we find others in that darkness,and sometimes we lose them there again.."

Straight jacket feeling..

well i just wanted to let you know where the name of my blog came from..its just the fact that i couldn't stop thinking about this song and lik singing it in my head for months and months after i heard it!!its by All American Rejects they are a damn goood band and i love them!the song is called straight jacket feelling offcourse and here is how it goes..

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal A
nd you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell,But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be,That face is tearing holes in me again
Trust you is just one defense
Off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time againto take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be
That face is tearing holes in me,but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you
And when that memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remainsand just the thought of you I feargrip falls away
Yesterday was hell
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be
That face is tearing holes in me,but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you..

Diguise..?

Nathaniel Hawthorne once wrote..
"no man for any considerable period can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude without finally getting bewildered to which maybe d true"
I actually find it very sincere..because in every aspect in one's life there comes the time where you have to pretend. Pretend you like a friend's friend,a mother's cooking,a friend's carpet's hideous colour..And suddenly you find yourself telling some1 about that freaking carpet!!wht the hell you never even liked it to start with!!but you can't remember why u didnt like it cuz you kept convincing urself that its cute in order to spare your friend the embaressment!!It's just human nature to disguise your feelings till u forget what they were to start with..

Karma..?

so..am i like supposed to say something about myself..? i dont have anything to say and if i said something are you supposed to listen..?and even then,you would be wrong to believe me..Trust is a lie,but relations are the worst lie. People socialize and talk,they act like they are concerned and ask you how is it going,ur just supposed to nod and say fine cz no1 really cares..Ur life is urs 2 make,dont seek help..its never an option...you'll find people who'll "love" u and care about you,but they always leave cz you c life is all about bargains and when you find sthn better u have to let go of the old one and move up the ladder..u'll spend ur whole life looking for perfection,till one day u'll be so up on those ladders that the person ur with will think ur not good enough..and its time to let go of YOU my friend thats "Karma"..